New Year’s Eve. The results.

I am so overwhelmed from my original post of ‘The big C word’ and can’t believe how many people have viewed my post and sent me really positive feedback, I have had complete strangers thanking me for putting up such a personal post and likewise strangers emailing me with their positive stories and giving me good vibes and hope for today.

However, no matter what anyone else says to you, when the day comes to see if you have metastatic cancer spread throughout your body, you just cannot categorise your own feelings. One minute I feel upbeat, really positive and sure the cancer is contained. The next I’m planning my funeral songs and wondering how my children will cope without a mum. It’s sounds quite hard hitting, but if I’m writing a blog, warts and all, my account needs to be true.

Generally, I’m quite forward thinking. I thought about this day over the last couple of weeks and wondered what we would talk about in the waiting room, waiting to go in to see my consultant for good or bad news. I am a talker. I cannot stand awkward silence. I knew there would be silence at times as my parents and husband sat worrying about what all our futures would bring. So I downloaded an app on my iPhone about 10 days ago for us all to play in the waiting room. It’s the TV show ‘The chase’. We played it a bit yesterday to test it out, when it come down to the crunch John and my dad ended up playing it, waiting for our 3:35pm appointment, and mum and I ended up playing solitaire on our phones. Most people in the waiting room were reading books or just sat glaring into thin air, but us Apple freaks turned to phone games.

With my stomach doing flips and my face showing positivity, my name was finally called. The consultant was on his own, no nurse this time, could this be good news?

He finally broke the news that I had been waiting for. The cancer was contained in my breast and axilla and the Mastectomy alongside chemotherapy and radiotherapy would ‘cure’ this terrible disease. It sounds cliche, but I broke down in tears with absolute utter relief. I couldn’t be more happier to hear them words. My parents faces were truly relieved and my husband looked like he had just won the lottery.

Crazy eh? ย That we can be so happy at a consultation about breast cancer. It kind of feels weird writing that I am so happy, although I still have this dreaded disease, it will soon be gone.

So It is still New Year’s Eve, I am writing this before 8pm, so I can sit down with my family and crack open the bubbly and see the new year in with some uplifting thoughts.

2016 is going to be a hard year, with my Mastectomy in the next couple of weeks, then the chemotherapy and radiotherapy. But this time next year I will be the same old me, just with a shorter more funkier hairstyle and a greater outlook on life.

May all your dreams come true for 2016. Happy new year to my fellow bloggers and friends, and a ย big thank you to my huge, most wonderful family for supporting me through this.

Much love,

Michelle xx

 

20 thoughts on “New Year’s Eve. The results.”

  1. Dear Michelle what absolutely fantastic news for you, your husband and your family. Here’s wishing you all the best for 2016. Still going to be tough but at least you know you will be cured. Love Lyrae,xxx

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  2. Hi Michelle I read ur blog yesterday and I have not stopped thinking of u! I’ve been waiting all day sending good thoughts ur way i’m so glad the news was good! Ur truely brave! I wish u all the best for 2016 stay strong lots of love X X X

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  3. So glad the results were the best they could have been ๐Ÿ™‚ so very chuffed for you and I imagine it is a huge relief to know what your dealing with. Best of luck with the treatment and I think u will look lovely with a short ‘do’.
    Happy new year x

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  4. Michelle so pleased if that is the right think to say.
    I feel like you are writing my life story that is exactly how I felt too knowing it was in just one place.
    Will find out next fri if I will have an op so fingers crossed
    Have a great night and keep smiling and good luck keep your blog going x wendy x

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  5. Fantastic news hun.. was thinking of you yesterday and praying u would get get news .. all the best at kicking it’s arse. Much love to you and your family ๐Ÿ˜˜โค๐Ÿ’ช happy 2016 xxxxx

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  6. Wow amazing news! You know you have a tough few months to get through but you have so much support. Have been following your blog and you truly are an incredible lady. Stay strong and I look forward to the next piece of good news x

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  7. I don’t know you but such a courageous lady!! Wishing you all the luck in the world. Stay strong and positive.xx

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  8. So so so pleased for you, your mum and dad, brothers and sister, your husband and most of all your babies ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’™ your so brave writing this blog letting the world read it, it’s beautifully written too, hope 2016 flys by for you, I look forward to reading this a year from now when it says ‘I’ve beat cancer’ ๐Ÿ˜Š Xxxxxxxxx

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  9. So pleased for you Michelle… still can’t quite believe your going through this at such a young age. I will be following your blog closely and keep everything crossed for you for your future of kicking cancers arse. Much love to you and your family xx

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  10. Michelle that is brilliant news :). You have so many people supporting and thinking of you. All of us sending you our love. Best wishes for your journey in 2016 and know that we will all support you when
    ever you need.

    A big hug and kiss

    Julie x

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  11. Such great news for you Michelle,we all know you still have a battle on your hands but with such a strong loving family by your side, you will get through it.
    Stay strong lovely lady
    Amanda ๐Ÿ’œ

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