I thought the world of blogging for me #tagging my chemo journey in the spring and summer would be over. I even organised a barbecue to celebrate with my family and friends about kicking cancers butt, but as you know that wasn’t to be.
Getting back on that ‘horse’ once I had already got off was very difficult. I felt terrible having chemotherapy intravenously in the summer, I felt like I was lost as a person and my role of a mother and wife was diminished. I put on a lot of weight, lost 10 days out of my life every 3 weeks and felt like an 80 year old women trying to carry on as normal. I was told it would take a good 12-18 months to get back to normal after this treatment, so I mentally circled that date in my mind of normality resuming in our lives.
So when I got told I needed more chemo, my world shattered. My hair has started to grow back quite nicely and although I’m still overweight I have lost that steroid look from my face, I was trying to get my fitness back together and so this news was a massive blow. I imagined going back into the hospital having another picc line inserted, ordering another wig and preparing my bedroom for a sick room again.
But, thankfully, the chemotherapy I am taking is called Capecitabine. They are tablets! Hooray! No more picc lines. Hair loss is unlikely! And side effects are much more minimal than IV chemo.
I take this chemo in 3 weekly cycles. I take 2.3grams twice a day for 2 weeks, then I have a weeks Break.
Touch wood, so far I have had no side effects at all. I’ve had a very bad cough mind you and started on antibiotics so some days I’ve felt wiped out that way, but other than that it’s been ok.
I believe you can have as many cycles as you need, some ladies have other chemo on the side too, but my plan is just the tabs at the moment.